::exhausted.
2:56 p.m. - 2005-03-14
i totally have to take sharon's survey now. i feel so loved!
i haven't updated in forever though, so i suppose i owe that first. it's been the week from hell. i'm just going to shoot right through it because so much has gone on and i want to remember it.
tuesday--class all day until training from 4 until 9:30.
wednesday--sarah's flight is delayed (supposed to arrive at 9 am). she still hasn't taken off when i leave for work at 9:30. gets in during my lunch shift and deana picks her up. i pick sarah up after work at 3 pm then take her to my apartment. then take her to campus, then go to work from 5-10. then pick sarah up. then pull an allnighter and study for a midterm and write a paper.
thursday--class, study, study, study, midterm, aparment. sarah has been in wilmington all day with deana but luckily, they don't have to drive back: deana's dad flies them. in his own plane. don't get me started on this. noelle shows up at 8 pm, then sarah at 9:30. we stay up and drink/smoke until i eventually pass out around 12:30.
friday--get up to be at work at 10:30; sarah and noelle are going to come in for lunch at the restaurant and sit in my section... leave at 2:30 from work after they never showed. get back to an empty apartment and no note so i get pissed. anyway, they finally get back at 3:30... they showed up too late to the restaurant to eat, so they went somewhere else. i have to leave at 4:30 for babysitting. i babysit from 5-9. then i get back and we meet noelle's cousin for a late dinner at firebirds. we get done then go home and i pass out around 2:30. noelle and sarah pull an allnighter.
saturday--get up at 7:30 for work... again. training from 9-1. get home to an asleep noelle and a gone sarah. she had to leave a day earlier than planned. i chill, then pass out from 5-8. when i wake up, we go to dinner with noelle's cousin again and then stay up until midnight drinking and smoking and popping xanax.
i go to sleep at midnight that night and don't wake up until 12:30, feeling like shit. noelle leaves around 3, then i sleep from 4-6 and go back to bed at 8:30 when a nasty fever.
this persists throughout the night and finally breaks around 6 am.
8:30 am...
i get up to go to work.
anyway, i'm surviving. i could make a lot of reflections on the past few days, but i am drained. emotionally, physically, mentally.
i just got done cleaning my apartment (somewhat). that was one thing that bugged the crap out of me: they left it looking like a PIGSTY. the dishes were everywhere, over six bags of trash (not including beer and pizza boxes), and shit spilled all over the counters. i wanted to cry when i got home.
i'm so tired. so so so tired.
