::no happy ending.
1:36 p.m. - 2005-02-21
i miss my gold membership. i thought i was going to be able to transfer what was left on my old account to this one, but, alas, it does not seem so.
anyway, just the same old crap is going on around here. class, babysit, class, babysit. i fixed the link to my flikr mess, so if you still want to see some of the pictures i took at disney, you can find them:
i still have to go back in and edit them, as i mistook the tag section for the description section and just, eh.
anyway, i have been babysitting and enjoying it, as it's not difficult work and the kids are pretty nice. ryan, who evidently still tells their former babysitter that he hates her after two years, informed me on saturday night that i am the best babysitter in the world. warm fuzzies, i must confess. they are both good kids; i can't imagine that it's easy being twins, but they get along pretty well. i used to always want a twin and now you couldn't pay me to have someone my same age trailing along next to me.
anyway, kids do tend to usually love me; i don't know exactly why although i'm not complaining. i think it has something to do with having chandler as a little brother--it has made me at ease with all kids and i think they sense that and respond to it.
still, i need to find a second job like NOW and i just can't seem to get up the motivation to get my ass out of the apartment on the days when i don't have anything to do and... go apply. it really needs to be a waitressing position, so that i can have a flexible schedule and made decent money, but i don't know. i am just comfortable where i am with the money i am making, even if it is just enough to skirt by. i LIKE just being in school and working 20 hours per week; i LIKE being a normal student for once, instead of the tense ball of nerves i turn into under the pressure of working a ton.
anyway, i will get the second job. i am going to force myself to on wednesday. still, i am working on submitting an article to jane magazine, for their "it happened to me" feature. if it goes through, it will be a thousand dollars and i have a pretty interesting story for them. i will share later, after i know one way or another. let's just say that first assembly upbringing didn't leave me with any lack of bizarre experiences.
what else? i got really wasted on saturday night. it was the first time i had drank in like three weeks. and i haven't smoked pot in a couple weeks either--only once in the past month actually. hard to believe, even for me, when i look at my track record. just as i couldn't fathom NOT smoking five times per day when i was doing it, i now cannot fathom smoking that much every day. yikes.
